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reviewed by Dana on IE, 1024x768
user's total entries: 286

first impression: i'm sorry, but i've been around diaryland for a long time and things start looking and sounding the same. i liked the layout -- the picture is blurry, but it fits in with the colours. i like just how simple is. i just wasn't too impressed with "stolen innocence" or "fresh / stale." it really may be a part of who you are, especially because i read you were sexually abused -- which really gives you a reason to feel like your innocence was stolen. obviously, words you use to explain yourself may sound horribly cliche at first, but they make more sense as i read more into you. that's why they made the phrase don't judge a book by its cover, is it not? :]
3.0 out of 4.0

content: while i wouldn't read this diary daily, i thought it was pretty good content, especially for many girls out there now. have you seen the movie thirteen? that reminded me of you, although i haven't seen it yet. eating disorders, anorexia, self-mutilation -- i've just seen it so much. and that fact makes it even worse for society, but after a while, i grew immune to reading about it. your past makes it more interesting for me -- as i was reading on your extras, one girl mentioned you write about depression but without petty reasons like not being able to go out past curfew. i know many teens who have to deal with depression and cutting, but not as many have to deal with sexual abuse and going to the police station to help their mom. that impressed me. i also liked the way you sometimes noticed that things were okay -- the things that hurt you were in the past, and now the thing that seems to be bothering you most is your weight. but! i really like the different cultures. i have no idea where you've living but my first guess was england. after that, i liked hearing about "year 6" for school and how you're out of high school. it also amazed me that you knew so many people who were actually sickly from anorexia -- everyone i know here acts like because they didn't eat for two days, they must be anorexic, and make a big fuss about it. i liked that you wrote about depression, cutting, or anorexia because it really is affecting you, and you're not just wondering about it for the hell of it. you have a lot of passions, or at least, you have a lot of beliefs that you carry with you throughout. even though you often doubt yourself, you stand up for yourself. you accept love and you give love, and you also show that you're able to have fun and not just locked in a room away from everyone. in the end though, maybe i just can't relate enough. while i too am overweight, i've never fallen into the life of anorexia. i try to look at everything with an objective standpoint, but maybe we don't always do that. even so, i was impressed by you.
3.0 out of 4.0

errors: some things are bolded, some aren't. i wasn't sure if that was done on purpose or not, but it's not anything big. i can't find many errors concerning your writing, and it's definitely better than most -- which is absolutely wonderful.
3.9 out of 4.0

layout: i like it. it's clean and simple, except the image is blurry. i like that the colour of it, though, so nicely matches the words.
3.5 out of 4.0

navigation: perfect! it's absolutely easy and still looks nice.
4.0 out of 4.0

extras: i LOVE fact lists. and the number one fact, about the balloon, THAT'S THE COOLEST THING EVER. my mom never wanted me to let go of balloons because she said they'd pop over the ocean and kill all the fish, but if i ever do let go of one, i hope it ends up like yours did! and i may have to try it -- i've send off letters to people i didn't know, but never tried that [ nor the message in a bottle thing ]. anyway. a nice amount of normal extras. i bet, since you sound so interesting, you could make even more. :]
3.9 out of 4.0

contact: email, notes, guestbook! sounds good to me. i think some reviewers think you need to have AIM or a messenger name ... but i think most people don't always want that.
4.0 out of 4.0

honours points: i loved that balloon thing so much. and you're not living in america. how exciting!
.2 out of 0

would i come back: probably not, but not because it's absolutely horrifying, but because i can't relate.
2.0 out of 4.0

favourite entries: this one. i related to that, definitely.

favourite quotes: "Yeah, it's easy for people to say "move on and put the past behind you" but how the fuck can you do that when you can still smell his breath every day?" i don't know why. i think because it explains what a lot of people feel about the past -- they want to forget and they don't want to be bothered by it, but it's always there.

score: 3.4125 + .2 for honours = 3.6125 / 4. A - !

verdict: sounds like you're a keeper. violet and dana admire you.

comments: well ... i think people like you just look all wrong at their weight. i think i used to, too. i'm also overweight and have been for most of my teenage life. but i realize that weight loss doesn't come quickly, anorexia will not end nicely and is not pretty. you often complain about your weight, how you feel so gross and oily. but then you eat loads and loads of chocolate and say you feel okay with that. there are many things you can do to feel better about yourself -- chocolate is absolutely wonderful, i agree, but not when an hour later you want to cry with regret. have you ever put yourself on a small diet without trying to commit yourself too much? you don't have to go on a strict diet that eliminates carbs or some other food group -- and you don't have to eliminate ALL food groups. make a list of what you've eaten in a day. slowly cut back or just see how long you can go without having snacks between meals. there's other little tricks like -- pack up half the meal when you go out to eat, drink water between every bite, put your fork down before you take another bite. i think that a lot of people, before they finally go on a great diet, stay at the position you're in. i basically think you have a lot of potential to get out of many the downfalls you've found yourself in. i hope everything works out for you, and like you mentioned once, that you find full and complete happiness one day.

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